Hello again, internet
Well, I'm back to the world of blogging, after realizing that I had been gone for over a year. I know nobody knew I was gone, but I still feel the need to apologize, if to nobody else, then at least to myself. So, I'm sorry.
A lot of things have changed, but even more have stayed just the same.
Gary finally popped the question back in November, and we are going to be getting married in December of this year. Scarily enough, the wedding is exactly two months away. I'm happy, and terribly excited.
We bought a house, and have acquired a new kitten. We have both gotten new jobs, at a new restaurant in town, and everything is going according to our ever-changing plan.
I can no longer call myself a musician, having abandoned my dear trumpet. My trumpet and I have been through so much together, for it has gained me much experience in the world, via musicality and popularity. The french horn is gone as well. Alas, I despair.
But my reasoning for the loss of music is quite simple. I had other things to do, of which were more beneficial. Sleep, precious sleep was my main desire, and the only way to attain such said utopia was to give up something I needed a little less: band. It took 10+ hours out of each week, hours that I now spend working, for homework, or for my slumbering needs.
Friendship is hard to come by, and easier to lose. I've lost a best friend to the world, and almost lost another to the final end. One has abandoned me to myself, and two more have seemingly forgotten of my existence. I still love them all, but, regrettedly, they no longer need me.
So, I must forge this same pathway that I have been on for all too long. I don't have the means to begin anew, and I don't know if I would want to. Where I am going will be a happy place, but lonely without the friendship that I once shared with so many loving people.
But I'll have Gary, and we'll be okay.
Not else needs to be said, other than that I miss my dad. He was my rock, and without his support, the foundation of my life crumbles away.
Dad, I miss you each day.
Love always,
Amanda





